Today I caught a bus from Shirakawa-go to Takayama, then a second bus from Takayama to Matsumoto, where I’m staying overnight. And today marks the first time that I could talk about the journey and about my friendship with Carlos with another traveller into the kind of detail that felt honouring of the memories. The hostel I’m spending the night has a common kitchen, where the travellers join for tea or coffe, or just talking.
And the conversation with this other traveller, Naomi, took an interesting turn into relationships and attachment styles. Not only as a reflection of one of the relationship pains that Carlos had so deeply shared with me during our friendship, but also as a poignant note of another grief that I’m now carrying, from my own relationships, which this memorial is not the place for. But this conversation of relationships gave me an inspiration to look for a sketch from Carlos that would touch on relationships, and I found this one.
My remix is unfortunately not in a fully working state – I wanted to do a system that would mimic roughly the push-pull dynamics of insecure attachment, and this came off as inherently simplistic. I feel like this was a beginning of an idea for an installation, though, and this was probably what Carlos had also set out to do with his sketch. I might remix my own remix later ☺️